It suddenly occurs to me that I'm not very happy.

I'm missing something huge and important that I really need.

And I don't know where it is or how to get it.

It's amazing.  Yet again, I was feeling incredible on the way home today, but now I'm sitting here feeling depressed and aching and wanting more than I could ever have.

Maybe I need to stop using the computer.  Maybe I need to stop talking to people too.  Heck, I don't even know who I am talking to right now.  Just I've got a hole that needs to be dealt with, and I can't take care of it myself, because I don't even know what could plug the hole up.

I'm not really getting anything done anymore.  I'm failing.  I'm inefficient.  I'm not making myself look any better.  And there's nobody that can help me.

*chuckles* I love how I'm making myself feel worse just by sitting here typing.
If I was able to play games during the weekdays, at least I wouldn't have this on my mind.

SOMETHING NEEDS TO HAPPEN.
Why am I not good enough?

Relationships become very important, as the cosmos surrounds you with a number of positive influences to brighten your life. Mars continues to move through Aries, which is stirring up issues associated with your partnerships, and encouraging you to clear the air. But early on, Mars makes a powerful trine to Pluto, and this means passion in no uncertain terms. There is a sense of release and of freedom, which may translate into a deepening of the bond between you.